Rebel with a Cause!

Rebel with a Cause!

I love you so much I could eat you What do I mean by that You attract me in ways that defy all logic Defy all space and time But do I love myself enough I know me only in terms of you And him and her and that person over there too But then I was left with the real question “who am I without all of you?” And so I began this incessant search for seeking the truth A Mara, you see He put the devil in me Introduced the villain Two opposing sides Dr. Jenkyll and Mrs. Hyde And you as my target Chosen for a reason Beyond all earthly comprehension Strong enough to reject temptation So that I could face my shadows Finally feel what I’ve been numb to for so long Found myself knee deep in the depths of my own personal hell so I could become like a phoenix rising like the sun The reflections of me you mirror back Made me want to run and hide Everywhere I go I’m causing trouble But as you know, I’m not one for status quo Those that change the world never are Jung, Freud, Jimi Hendrix A troublemaker right from the start A rebel without a cause, no A rebel with a cause, unconditional love To become the holy version of me That is to become whole within myself To learn to conserve my energy for what truly matters, my soul purpose here on this earth Loving myself, overflowing my cup with enough leftover to spread it like wildfire, a gift from up above But first I needed you to push me I had to get to that point.. That point where I said this has to fucking stop, and enough is enough Duplicitous, two opposing sides Cognitive dissonance Needed space to clear my mind To understand less thinking and more feeling from the heart Finding humor instead of calling your bluff Life is a journey What will you make of it Laugh at the pain of it Find a way to play in the despair of it That’s what I asked for It’s what I prayed for To become a conduit For God to use me To become a channel for his deepest expressions of unconditional love To show the world what’s possible But I had to face my shadows first Even face my own death Broken down by the Mayan illusions that fill this holographic world All of it perfectly orchestrated In order to finally be re-birthed For this sacred union, for us to finally become one.

Poem by Alejandra Marie